Dear Me

16 Apr

Dear Me,

I wanted to start by saying thank you.  Thank you for trying to protect me all these years.  Thank you for building those walls when I wasn’t strong enough to face the world.  Thank you for studying people and watching them so closely, and alerting me every time they did something suspicious that was similar to other times I’d been hurt.  Thank you for tucking me deep down, away from all the pain and the hurt that the world can bring.  Thank you for everything.

But it’s time for me to come out now.  It’s time for me to face the world and feel the sun on my face.  I can’t stay locked inside anymore.  It’s time for me to stop hiding and start healing.  I can’t stay protected forever.  The walls we built have turned into a prison.  I need to be free, to get a few bumps and bruises, because that’s the only way I will grow.  I’m not saying I don’t need you anymore, because I do.  This is all very new to me, and I’ll need a safe place I can come to when I start getting overwhelmed.

It’s not that I don’t appreciate the things you’ve done for me, but the things that once helped me are now hurting me.  It’s time for us to come up with a new way of dealing with the outside.  I’m willing to work with you on this, because you have been faithful and strong for me, but you must find it within you to start breaking down some of these walls.

You have been the truest friend I’ve ever had, but it’s time for us to let go of all of the old hurts and realize that hiding away isn’t going to stop the hurt from happening.  Life is going to hurt, but the walls mean there’s no one else around to make it better again.  We are no longer children, and we know that hiding our head beneath the covers only protects us from the monsters that live in the closet, not from the monsters that live in broad daylight.

We can be strong without being distant.  We can love without fear.  Living life waiting for the other shoe to drop hasn’t made us happy, so it’s time for a change.

I know it’s scary, but we can do it.

We have to do it.

It hurts too much not to.

Love,

Me

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6 Responses to “Dear Me”

  1. astraltravler April 16, 2014 at 7:09 am #

    Dear K.K.,
    Its been too long My Friend. Your post resonates with me. So beautifully composed.
    Much Love,
    Hugs
    Anastasia

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    • KraftedKhaos April 24, 2014 at 6:55 am #

      Anastasia,

      Thank you so much for your always kind and uplifting comments. Your presence on my blog is always such a warm and happy occasion! Thank you for being such a sweet and loyal follower to my often strange and chaotic thought processes!

      ~A.

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      • astraltravler April 24, 2014 at 12:52 pm #

        Dear K.K.,
        It’s Always My Pleasure to stop over when I see you have posted. 😊
        Darlin I’m drawn to, and enjoy the strange and most unusual. Great Minds think a like, and I like the way You think! Be well, looking forward to your next posting.
        Your Loyal Friend, and Follower,
        ~A 😘

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  2. KindnessBlog April 24, 2014 at 5:36 am #

    Really enjoyed this. Thank you.

    Liked by 1 person

    • KraftedKhaos April 24, 2014 at 6:54 am #

      Thank you for reading and commenting… I just figured it was time to let ME know some things. 🙂

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  3. Holistic Wayfarer May 20, 2014 at 5:38 pm #

    I hope you indeed have felt the sun on the other side. =)

    Liked by 1 person

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